If you’ve been here before you may notice that things are changing again. It might be a good thing, it might be a bad thing.
I never know when I change things up how they’re going to turn out. I only know that it needs to occur. So I run with it until it crashes and burns or shows signs of being right. It’s the only way I know how to live.
At this time, all I know is that change is required. It’s enough for me to move forward.
an introvert living out loud
Many of my friends have told me that I live out loud online. For an introvert, this seems odd, but the website has always been the window through which I’ve allowed to world to view my life.
However, in recent months I’ve grown dissatisfied with that view of my life. It’s not that I’ve been dishonest, but perhaps not honest enough. I’m not hiding anything, yet my writing feels stilted and false. That’s how I know it’s time to change things up.
a split-brained fractured identity
In my book, the Bullet Journal Power User Guide, I talk a good deal about how keeping more than one notebook can lead to split-brain syndrome. I’ve maintained this view from the beginning because it’s how my brain reacts to having my attention fractured across more than one notebook.
And yet, over the past several years I’ve maintained up to five websites simultaneously. Talk about not taking my own advice. Over the past few months I’ve been feeling more split-brained, splintered perhaps -fractured; this change in my approach to writing is a direct result of this multiple-personality online-existence.
my accountability group’s impact
I belong to a local group of entrepreneurially-minded folks that meet once per month to discuss our business and plan for moving forward. It’s a local chapter of the Live Your Legend global network of independent entrepreneurs and difference makers started by my late colleague, Scott Dinsmore. My local chapter ends each week with a voluntary accountability option where members can opt to become accountable to the group for accomplishing something specific to move their business forward by the new meeting.
As a big supporter of accountability I opt in each week for this opportunity. At our last meeting I chose to determine my ‘whys: why am I in business in the first place? why do I feel so stilted and unsettled?’ The unsettled feeling I’d been feeling came up in our conversation and further discussion led me to voice this to my group. Journaling about this as well as speaking to a close friend about it brought me to a place of peace and what I see as a way forward.
the way forward: writing from my center
The way forward for me now is to write about my life as it unfolds and the lessons I learn. Ev used to call it experience telling. It strikes me as the only authentic way to write if you don’t want to sound like the Donald Trump of the blogosphere. It clears away the hype and pretense and everything else that I’m finding so abhorrent at this time.
“When I’m not experience telling, I’m bullshitting.” -Ev Bogue
I think I’ve finally internalized this concept. If I’m writing about Bullet Journal or working on a book, unless it comes from my own experience it feels false. I’m not a journalist, I’m a writer and a truth-teller. Many of the writers I admire most , especially this one, do this every time they hit ‘Publish.’
For too long, I’ve approached business from the perspective of authority-building. It’s what Internet marketers will tell you in necessary for success. But after ten years of following this path, I can tell you that it’s a path that nearly guarantees burnout for introverts like me. Writing from my center feels like a more natural way forward.
My aim is to build authority without resorting to being someone I’m not.
the previous content will remain
None of my previous content is being deleted. Everything I’ve published about bullet journal, deeper living, and minimalism will remain here. I will still write about those topics but from a different frame of reference.
So be prepared. You might see some things you can’t unsee. 😎
I’d like to know how you feel about this post. It’s my hope that it will strike a place of recognition with you. If so, I’d love for you to comment.